DAY 6
Something you hope you never have to do.
This one actually didn't take that much time to think about, because I have already thought about it.
I hope I never have to become young widow.
Ever since Jake signed his contract, enlisting in the Army, the thought of losing him has been at the fore front of my mind.
People have told me, "It could happen even if he were not in the Army. He could be in a car accident or something like that." As well as the stories of the soldiers that live through the front lines and then get killed in a car accident after they get home.
That all being true, it doesn't change the fact that him being in the Army has heightened my awareness of how fragile our lives are, Jake's in particular.
We've taken all the cautionary measure we can to make sure that if anything were to happen, to either one of us, that we would be taken care of financially. But, there's not really any way to prepare for the emotional toll. There was a brief conversation, if you can call it that, of remarrying. And, we've talked about how we would want things to be handled as far as our extended family is concerned.
Honestly, I don't know if I could get remarried if anything happened to Jake. I tease him, saying, "You're the only one that can handle all of my craziness." Truthfully though, I don't know if I could love another as much as I love Jake. He understands everything about me. We've never had any secrets, even from when we first started dating. We can be completely comfortable with each other, because we are best friends.
But, the reasons for me fearing the loss of my loving husband is not just for me, it's for our two little girls as well. I would feel a huge responsibility to make sure they knew how amazing their father was. That he made it his purpose in life to make us happy, no matter what it cost him. That's why Jake enlisted, because he wanted me to be able to stay at home with our children, because he knew how important that was to me. He wanted me to be happy.
What will be, will be and all we can do is make the darn lemonade out of the lemons we get from it all.
30 Days of Truth Challenge
Day 7.)Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8.)Someone who made your life heck, or treated you horrible.
Day 9.)Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10.)Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11.)Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12.)Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13.)A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14.)A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15.)Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16.)Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17.)A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18.)Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19.)What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20.)Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21.)(scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22.)Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23.)Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24.)Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25.)The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26.)Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27.)What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28.)What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do.
Day 29.)Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30.)A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
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